Sailor Senshi Maker

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Now...

It must have been years since the last time I wrote here. Many things have changed since then. My life can be said as a lot better and happier compared to years ago. I am now engaged to my beloved fiance. We are going to get married in a few months. It surely makes me, hmm.. us, feel wonderful.

Life also looks a lot better now. Works and family seem to be really good. However, there are still something missing or so I feel now. Losing some beloved family members still a few years back still "haunts" me now. What if they are still alive? Would everything be different now? Would my family and I be a lot happier? Yet still, no satisfying answer can be given to these questions.

Maybe, I should stop regretting things that had  happened. I should have moved on for all of those things a long time ago, but it is not as easy as taking candies from a baby, which actually turns out to be much more difficult, to take candies from a baby I mean. There are things that always hold me back from moving on. Memories, remorse and everything seem to not allow me to move on and keep up with my life like I used to, before all of those things happened.

Being happy, I guess, is my own choice. I can let the sadness overwhelm me or let it go. Yet, choosing between those two choices is kinda hard. I think, so far, I prefer choosing both of them. Sometimes, when I want to feel the sadness, then I just decide to be sad and reminisce anything from parts of that memory. Nonetheless, when I want to forget about this sadness a little on some other times, I can just shift my focus to something that makes me happy. The prospects that I have with my fiance, family and everyone ahead often lighten my mood and make everything seem a lot better.