Your Guardian Angel

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out

How this world turns cold
And breaks through my soul
And I know, I'll find deep inside me
I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

It's okay, it's okay, it's okay

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you, I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
 Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

'Cause you're my, you're my, my
My true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away

'Cause I'm here for you
Please don't walk away
And please tell me, you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know, I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever

-one more anthem-

A Twist in My Story

Slow down, the world isn't watching us break down
It's safe to say we are alone now, we're alone now
Not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver
I'm counting the seconds until you break the silence
So please just break the silence

The whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

And I'm longing, for words to describe how I'm feeling
I'm feeling inspired
My world just flip turned upside down
It turns around, say what's that sound
It's my heart beat, it's getting much louder
My heart beat, is stronger than ever
I'm feeling so alive, I'm feeling so alive

My whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
That's what you get
When you see your life in someone else's eyes
That's what you get, that's what you get

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you
This world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of yo


-another anthem-

Way Back into Love

I've been living with a shadow over head
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time, to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
Ive been searching but I just dont see the signs
I know that its out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody to get me through the night
I could use some direction, and I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
and If I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I dont know if it's real
or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration, not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
and If I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you'll show me what to do
and if you help me to start again
you know that I'll be there for you in the end.

-the anthem-

Jealousy

Jabberwocky of love, some say that
Easment of the heart, it is not
Abide what they say, some can't
Lacerate the feeling, it won't
Oblique emotion eventually to show, not for always to hide
Unaffected your feeling will be toward "yours"
Sagacious or not, none will care
You and I, she and he, one with each other, and just, forever

Story of This Day

This morning,
You picked me up in the place we usually meet
Hold my hand gently and tightly
Take me to the place we would spend our times
To make our story of this day

You gave me something special today
Something can't be seen by our eyes
Something that only can be felt by our hearts
Something that be realized just by us
Our time together this day

And here I am now
Staying on my bed while listening to our songs
Recollecting every single memorable thing we had today
Feel its emotion that will always precipitate in my heart

Spending my time with you
Making this day's story only by your side
Being one of stories we had
One of thousands stories we'll have

Tears

Why these tears cannot stop falling
Why these tears are still rolling down
from my eyes to my cheeks moist my face
'It couldn't be done now', told me to my heart
But my heart doesn't listen to me
My heart closes its ears firmly
My heart doesn't follow what I want
to stop my tears from falling
'Hey, it can be done another time', shouted I.
'We still can do this later, I promise you'
Yet still, my heart opposes me and shouted back, 'It won't be the same! ! '
I don't know what to do now
Reassuring my heart, I never think will be this hard
Really, I've no idea what to say
While my tears are still rolling down on my face

The Day of Love

This night,
I slept with the two cute dolls from you
Which hold words 'With Love' and 'I Love You'
That you gave me a year before
A month after this day

This morning,
I woke up with seeing them in my hold
They're still holding the same word
As wanna tell me how you love me
Before,
Today, in the day of love,
And forever..

This evening,
You took me home from that place
Where we spent our time of this day
An evening walk again
A today's beautiful memory to be carved again

Today.
The special day of love,
Is the same as another day
The same as tomorrow and yesterday
When I'm loving you with all my heart

Though the sun will soon come to its set
My feeling won't together with the sun
Disappear from your glance
Because for me, Honey..
Loving you will have no end

The Footprints of Memory

Step by step we through our days together
With every single memory which will be never blur
The memories we make and have
That will be kept, for ever, in our brain's cave

Smiles, laughs or even cries
Come and go coloring our days
Leaving its footprints on the surface of my heart
Being another beautiful art

The footprints of our memories
On and on and on appear on my heart
Along with the days we've passed
Along with the memories we make
in every single of days

The Old Sad Song

Again from my eyes
Tears were falling down
Is it a naivety having you on my own?
Accompanying me to get through that way
Just till the twilight of this day

Words of your reason
I've heard quite often
Don't you know it hurts me more?
Makes me to feel more of my sore

We've been together enough long
Why do you still sing for me this old sad song?
I'm sure you feel its hurt too
But why d'you still hum that old song for me and you?

The Path of Time

In this evening,
When the sun was shining
While the drizzle were falling from the azure of the sky
I was recollecting my beautiful memories of those day

I was born on that late of May
My parents welcome me in my birthday
With the joy in their laughter
For their second daughter

God's given them again a little girl to be looked after
To be lulled until she grew older
To be told the tales every night
About the pretty princess and her knight

Day by day been passed contentedly
The days greet our days graciously
Though sometimes we're implicated in a fight
We'll always be found again by our love's light

The same father I have now
With the love which never low
The same mother I have now
With the thought I never grow

Unanswered Question

I dunno what I'm thinking of
It seems scary for me
I hate this thought is there in my mind
I don't understand why it is in there
It looks real for me but I don't wanna believe it
I don't even have the guts to figure it out
I want it to disappear from my thought
I've tried to ignore
Yet still this shadow be there
In my mind
In my heart
Wherever I am
Whenever I be
Is that true?
Just the question I want to know the answer

What Do You Think?

What do you think about girls, Boys?
Are they quarry to be hunted?
Are they game to be played?
Are they football to be dribbled and kicked?
Or, are they something precious to be kept?

What d'you think?

What do you think about boys, Girls?
Are they someone who loves you?
Are they someone who pays attention to you?
Are they someone who needs you?
Or, are they someone who always hurts you?

What d'you think?

When I See You Drenched in The Rain Because of Me

When I see you drenched in the rain because of me
I wanted to change the time I asked you to stay longer with me
I desired to change my selfishness and allow you to go back to your home and leave me
With all today's beautiful memories of you and me

I knew tomorrow we would be together again
Making our beautiful memories again
But, I didn't know why this time I couldn't manage myself again
Let you be in that situation again

The word ' I'm sorry ' and ' I'll try to change ' maybe sound too plain to be said now
Sound meaningless and have no use now
Since you've heard many times now
And you have to hear it come out from my lips once again now

Whichsoever You

Your anger
Your shouts
My tears
My sore

Isn't it enough to say I'm sorry?
Don't you ever think it's difficult?
Wouldn't you appreciate it?
Will you not?

You said you're not you
You said you're not in that stage
I don't care
Really I do not care..

It doesn't matter in which one you be
It doesn't even matter in what stage you are
You're still the same as the first time we met
One I recognized
And will always be the same

Willingness

This hard rain
The reflection of my heart
Crying so hardly
So loudly..
No one knows
No one cares
Cannot be stopped

Sometimes,
Your words're like papers in the winter hurting my heart
As a knife that slices my heart into pieces
Don't you know?
Do you never realize?

Though..
I know already
Sooner I will hear your sweet voice again
Hearing you say that you love me
That our love will last forever and even beyond
I know that time will greet me more beautifully

With Love, I Love You

The time you said you loved me
And asked me to be your spouse
My heart was beating so fast
Faster and faster in every single time
Becoming a sensation I really like

Happiness that I felt at that time
Will be the emotion I keep inside
Be the most beautiful memory I have
Be something I always take care

Time goes by so quickly, Honey..
The contented we feel has reached its first summit
Though today we mightn't able to see the rainbow as at that time
I know that precious thing'll always be in our heart
Be the sign of our emotion, our feeling, our love..

And on this day,
The special day we've been waiting for
I just wanna tell you
My Honey,
With Love, I Love You


(For our first anniversary, Honey..)

Your Hold

In this chilly rain
I want a place to go
Place where I can find the warmth
Place where I feel safe

I know that place exists for me
Awaiting me to come there
To find what I want
To feel what I want to feel

Do you know where is it?
It's no where but your hold
Where I can hear your heartbeat
Where I feel you'll always be my own

Sunset from The Moving Train

When I see the sunset from this moving train
Which decorated by the pretty fine rain
I remember you as my sun brighten my day
With your shiny smile shining my way

When you have to set at your ease
I'll accept it with a will
Though I may see you just a lil'
Tomorrow, the day after, and the following you will be the same

You will give me that smile
Your unpretentious smile
Needn't to be asked
No need to begged

Seeing that sunset from this moving train
Makes me to forget the suffer of the pain
Even though you will replaced by the moon
I'll see you again enough soon

Solitude

Some letters I hate

Only hurt I get from these

Leaving you alone

Is it really what you want from me?

To let you be free a while

Understandable then if I ask

Don't you ever notice I just want you to be beside me?

End in the days with smile on our face

Red Thread

Betwixt us, Honey..
There's a red thread that bonds since that day
The very day we met each other for the first time
The time that I was sure I have met someone that will vary my life rhyme

Maybe I'm vulnerable
Need to be saved
Need to be protected
From anything sinister outside
But,
I'll always keep this precious thread
Try to make it be unbreakable

The read thread on our fingers
Will be stronger in every single day we pass
Never able to be broken by any things
By fight, shout, anger or even the torrential of tears

Rainbow

Reminds me of that beautiful day

Always there in my deepest heart

In your heart too I do hope

Never fades away

Be the sign of our precious feeling

Our momentary rainbow

Will not be momentary in our love

Phone Call

Whenever you're not here by my side
While I be away from you
Do you know what the only thing to do?
Just call me, My Love..

It's really enough only by your phone call
Listening to your resounding voice
To your sweet words blushing me
Keeping those special things like a recording that I can listen to
Every time I miss you..

Your phone call
Your sweet voice
Sufficiently represent your existence in my eyes
When we have to be apart..

Not Just A Memory

The droplets that fall one by one from the sky touching the land
Remind me of the precious memory we own
Memory of our emotion we keep inside

The flowing water flooding the street
Recollect me of our feeling
Which rushing in my blood through my vein
Making a fond sensation I love

But,
It surely will not be just a memory
Our falling droplets, our flowing water
Will be some things we look after
For ever...

New Year on The Crescent Moon

Wanna be in that crescent moon
Sitting side by side, hand in hand
Lying my head on your shoulder
Enjoy the delight of tonight only with you
Accompanied by the twinkling stars
Seeing the fireworks adorning the sky
Feeling its rhapsody
Hoping we'll love each other more than this

Nature's Lullaby

In this early morning,
When I woke up from my dream
I saw the sun dimly gleam
And heard a bird was nicely singing

The fine rain came soon after
Drenching the bird with its water
But it still continued to sing sweetly
Having no care with the water falling down torrentially

Sounds of the bird's song and the rain
Lulling me to sleep once again
Came to the another world dream
Coloring my day with its beam

Memory of Us

The memories we have
Might be like the blowing breeze
Passing through without any impression
But,
Your memory of us
Memory of our laughs
And our togetherness
Hopefully will always stay in our deepest heart
Be the beautiful memory we ever have

(Dedicated to my Listening I&II lecturer)

I Miss You (acrostic)

Inquisition through a short poem.

Meeting each other can't temporarily be reached
In the distance we now experience.
Something I do always desire,
Someone's voice on the phone to hear.

Yearning your voice as much as your existence.
On every dream I have, at my very glance.
Unceasing feeling that will always dance.

Love Within The Sparkling Snow

When we met at that snowy day
Within the snow rain falling from the sky
Overwhelmed us with its spark
Overwhelmed us with our feeling

We walked together under the falling snow
Holding each other's hand trying to find the warmth
To find the truth
I love you, you love me, our feeling..

Under that sparkling snow
As you said you love me
And wanted me to be your spouse
Joyful and contented I feel
Be with you for the rest of my life I only want

Our love within the sparkling snow
Will always be there in our heart
Grow stronger in every single day
We'll bring till there's no more day

Little Flower's Hope

You said you wanna save me, Honey..
Like a bird its with small wings
Protects its little flower
From the hard sunray
And the drenching rain

Sometimes,
Your wings might enfeeble, My Love..
But it doesn't matter
You, for always, wanna protect your flower
Protect your precious love

One thing,
I just want you to understand, Honey..
This little flower also wanna save you
Though I just have a little strength in me
I'll try to..

I'm sorry

I am sad today
Because I've made you resent me
'I'm sorry..'
Only word I can say
If it's not enough
Or even hurt you more
Please tell me what to do
Tell me how to make you smile at me again

I Need You

Inscribing this message with all my heart

No body knows how special this Love I have for you
Everyday, Honey, I Love You, I Miss You and I Need You
Enduring love to be owned till the end of our life light
Dazzling me daylong, at dawn and twilight, on daybreak and daylight

Yachting in the precious feeling we always have
On this beautiful ocean we together live
Unfailing desire of our everlasting love

I Miss You

You're not here today
You're miles apart
From my sight
From my reach
From the place I lay
But surely not from my heart

Though the sun still be shining
Though the moon hasn't longed to appear
I've missed you already
I've missed your smile
I've missed your hold
I've missed your laughter
Your everything..

On the day without you
I think nothing only you
On the day not hearing your laughter
I dunno what to do unless listening to my recording voice of yours
On the day with not being in your hold
I feel nothing but cold

I Miss You, Honey..
Since the very second we're away
And I'll be always missing you
Till there's no distance twixt me and you

I Love You

In this simple poem I want to say,

Look at me, Honey..
On both my eyes you lay,
Vales to be climbed those days to get closer to you
Eventually means nothing cause now I have you..

Year by year goes by so fast
Only you is there in my deepest heart
Utterance, however, won't be enough to tell you I Love You..

Honey

Honey..
You came to my life when I really needed someone
To share anything I feel inside
To melt my freezing heart
To quench the fire of my grudge
To soothe my broken heart

Honey..
You sail me away from my misery
Acquainted me with a brand-new day
With more beautiful sun bright
With a much prettier moon light

Honey..
You color my life story
By your meaningful feeling
Precious love now I'm having
Bond me tightly with your red thread

Hi There...

Hi there..
It's been so long since we talked
The time I'll never forget
That very time I've always missed

Do you know, Mate?
I wanna be at that time again
Sharing everything what we feel inside
Laughing out loud like we have no pain

Recalling those memories verge me of tears
They live in me so beautifully
I wanna hear your voice again in my ears
Though it can only happen in my fantasy

Early Morning Rain

In this early morning
When the dawn hasn't even been breaking
In my bed I'm lying half asleep
Listening to the sound of rain
Sound of droplets touching the street gently
Lulling me to sleep more tightly

December

During that day we were together
Enclosed ourselves to each other
Committed to be together forever
Each other's reason to live for
Memory by memory we've collected since that day
Become a beautiful story to be told someday
End up in the most precious moment of our day
Relationship that won't ever last till there's no more day


December 18th, 2007 - December 18th, 2009

Day Breaker

In that day,
An unknown man walked slowly but surely to my place
With an intention in his mind to broke my day
Making warmth of that day be the freezing ice
A beautiful day become one bad day

I've been too tired with this
I don't even have a single tear
To moisten my face by this
To be burst into my tears
Or just to verge me of tears

Wanted to give a shot to shout
'Hey, main your own! '
But my heart was falling down
And my eyes only could glare at
His face that's like a clown

140210

Voice of love I have in my heart for you
Arrow shot from cupid above unites us
Lay us here to share our emotion, mine and yours
Everlasting love gifted for me and you
No other thing I can give for you
To show you that I Love you more than this today
I can’t tell you anything else but this
Neither present an incredible poem nor outstanding sayings, but only
Elation in my heart to have the special today with you

300410

Memerizing day, hopefully today will be
Yearly valued time for you (and me)

Happy Birthday My Teddy
Unadorned gift, I'm just able to give you
Be delighted I hope you to be eventually
By trivial thing and wish from me for you
You get everything better I can only pray

A Brand New Year

Again, a year has been passed
Having left us with its memories
Which don't matter beautiful or sad
Being the yesterday histories

And a brand-new year has come to be faced
Day by day will go by slowly but sure
Leaving us older
Leaving us better
Being the tomorrow's mystery

Thirteen

Some say that 13 is an unlucky number
A number that walks along with bad luck
A number where everything's gonna be unwell
Is it untrue or not?
I really don't believe it

13 is 13
Doesn't matter it brings either luck or unfortunate
It's the same as others
The same as other odd number
The same as 2,4,12 and 14

13
I'm in this stage now
We are in this phase right now
And nothing bad happens
Neither infuriate nor aversions
Unless the fortunate itself

Reminiscence

After so many years, she passed his house again the day before yesterday. In front of his house stuck a paper, sold for 150 million rupiahs, call (0335) XXXXXX written on it. How devastated his life after that time she thought. The infidelity of his father caused so many troubles in his life; the divorce of his parents, the financial condition that was formerly all right slowly but surely became worse, there may be many other worse things happened in his life that she does not know since she was an outsider of his life. She knew about him much less than everybody ever thought.

She counted back then. It had been 9 years ago when she fell in love with him. Could it be mentioned as love? Or may it be just admiration? She never knew, never ever knew. Memory by memory of him flashed back in her mind right after she passed his house. She never knew that she still remembered the memories they ever had that clear, feeling like they just happened yesterday. The moments of making paper planes for his sister and some child, riding bikes together around the village, sitting together in the bench front of his house, handing him milk which was bought by his mom, and some other memories which she formerly tried hard to forget that now appeared again in her mind out of the blue.

Her foolishness which made all of these ended. Yes, exactly her own foolishness. She did not know what she was thinking at time. “I’m still 12 years old, so what? ”, she tried to calm down herself, yet she cannot forget the silly thing she had done that caused her every single beautiful occasion had to end and forget. What was this foolishness? Yup, she sent him a letter. Not a love letter as you might think, a friendship letter she preferred to call it, a stupid letter written by a 12-year-old little girl. This very letter was never replied. And at the times they met again, he became so ignorant, he never smiled to her again as he always did when she passed his house, he just became so annoying. She thought that it may be because of the letter she sent. Silly, is it not? Or the word pathetic will be more appropriate.

This happening made her try to forget him, forget the love she had for him yet it turned out to be really hard. It was not as easy as tearing apart a paper plane they once made. Even though she met so many other boys at her further schools, she could not forget him completely. Once in a while, she still remembered the memories she ever had with him. This and that boy could not make her forget him. It was hard, it really was.

Years passed, she never talked or even met him ever since. They took apart (intentionally). Until one day, a situation forced them to meet. Whatsoever happened, there must be one day they would meet, she once thought that but never realized that that would eventually happen. In one evening, he visited her house to see her sister who just gave birth. He came there with his mother and sister. When he came in and met her, he was still ignorant. He said nothing, not even greeted her. He walked into the house and just. The most important point happened when he left. He did it due he would look impolite if he were not doing so. Yep, lastly he greeted her. Just a “hi” and it had made all the difference.

She got hurt so bad. She thought she should have been really glad with that for after ages he finally greeted her again. It may be a good sign for them to reunite again. However, what happened was really appalling, she got very angry. Her heart did not seem cooperative at the moment she mulled but it turned out to be “no” in the end. She was really furious and her indescribable anger to him seemed last forever.

By this, she could forget him completely at last, “How lucky”, she said to herself. She finally could accept that they are not destined to be together. She began to think that there must be someone better out there is awaiting her. Furthermore, after some times she could open her heart to someone else. Someone who could melt her frozen heart.